'Tis not always an easy thing to be. I have been known to say that with aging it goes like this: with each year the tests of life that arise get harder and harder but by the same token, the rewards get exponentially greater. It's that way in my life at least and from what I see of others' lives, I suspect I'm not alone. Of course seeing the positive side of all of that isn't always easy.
One year ago today, I attended the funeral of a man that was essentially my brother. He was too young to die and his was not the only such funeral I've been to. Three of those happened in the summer and I had hoped this year that maybe my summer blues would start to diminish.
For the most part, this is a better summer then I've had in a while (actually it's the best since the summer I turned 40 and opened my yarn shop - that was pretty un-frickin-believably awesome). This year, I am in a new house I love, in a neighborhood I love, I'm able to take some time away from working and starting to regain some balance in my life. It has now been two and a half years of all work and the store's still here and still going great so the time had come! I've made new friends in my new neighborhood and feel like I'm back in my element (you can take the girl out of the city but . . . ) I resolved this year to try my best to remember that happiness is just a choice I make every morning. Some days it's easier than others.
Today and yesterday, I have just felt a bit off. I've got a good friend having a tough, tough week and nothing I say or do is going to change a temporarily negative outlook. That makes me feel sad and just a little ineffectual. When someone I care about is hurting yet nothing I do or say can make it any better, I tend to hurt a little bit too.
Today's been imbued with an undercurrent of sadness
but
today, I also got to see and visit with so many wonderful folks who come into Threaded Bliss.
For that (and so very much more) I am grateful.
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